Soul awakening

I had such a profound experience today that I want to share, but I also know that it will be hard to describe so keep an open mind as you read this one!

The last week has flown by with lots of appointments, commitments and a three day floral design class over the weekend. We also started a special project for Obie’s celebration of life that will a unique way to honor him. Yesterday, a few of his closest friends came over and we sorted through a lifetime of photo albums. It was a walk down memory lane for them and a reminder for me of the amazing life that Obie led.

I hinted at it in last week’s blog but lately I have felt like there was a weight pulling me down and it was a constant battle to keep upright. Today I had an experience that cut that line and lifted that weight. My massage therapist has suggested that I look into another provider that works in her studio, a gal who was a soul doula. I know many of you are having the same reaction when I heard that, “what is that?” Since my motto is “why not?”, I booked a session for this morning.

I had no idea what to expect but went in with an open mind. She explained that her specialty is energy work, where she connects to my energy and through that, can help unlock my unconscious self. This practitioner can also connect to spirits/angels/beings that are attached to you. Stay with me here, I know you are getting sceptical. I don’t know if her process is proprietary so I won’t get into the details too much. But you start with visualizing and she used a body of water, as you recall, that’s what I have used to represent my grief so that was consistent. She then shared what she was feeling from my energy and made some observations that were startling in their accuracy. At this point, I was having to focus less on telling my logical brain to go with the flow because these were things she could not have known about me. Then she started to share what she was hearing from the others present in the room with us, Obie, my gramma and Cindy. Cindy didn’t speak but she said she was seeing the laughter and love. She shared a lot from Obie and equally as much from my gramma. Besides my mom and sister, my gramma is one of the most influential women in my life. We did not speak about my gramma before the session and she shared things that awakened memories that are probably limited to me and my sister from when we were little.

The messages shared wrapped me in their love and support and while the session was incredibly emotional, I left with a lighter heart and the weight pulling me down was gone. While my logical brain knew my hands were on the table, I could feel Obie holding one hand and my gramma holding the other. Hands that are forever in my memories still supporting me. She records the audio from the session so I have that to listen to again in the future. I have been completely wrecked the rest of they day, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I’m looking forward to a great night’s sleep tonight and suspect I may have some interesting dreams.

I’m looking forward to future sessions when I need them, it was a centering exercise and helped me refocus on my purpose. I have shared before that I believe everything happens for a purpose and it is up to us to find the meaning. I have no doubt that this session was intended to happen today, at a point when I have been struggling. I will know when the time is right to go again.

Sometimes you have to open yourself up in order to move forward. What weight is pulling you down and what would it take to cut that anchor for you? It can be scary to open yourself to new things, even things that may not fit into a rational box. But I can attest after today, that the risk taken can be so worth it. Even if it was all in my mind, I’m so happy to have been able to make that connection with myself and with them. If you are interested in learning more about my experience, just let me know.

This weekend will be the first camping trip which will bring another set of emotions, but also an opportunity to start forming new memories with Tyler and his family. I know that Obie will be there with us, watching over us and most likely pointing out things we need to do with the RV. We have a handful of big camping trips before the RV heads south to Arizona, so this weekend is the shake out to make sure nothing is out of order or needs to be fixed.

I hope that you can find some wonder at some point this week, thanks for being a part of my journey!